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Not a Typical Homewrecking Niteflirt Journal.
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[homewrecked] Audio Narrative.
[My husband randy allen hartman Photos of Alleged Children]
Sigh...
12:56 pm.
Writing about trauma feels more traumatic. Admitting physical, sexual, and emotional abuse. My high school senior thesis about very topic.
I am my own case study. Lends in my shame of having to write pleasantries in growing up.
I hate reflection looking into a mirror having eyes cast upon my fractured soul. Cringing knowing how dismembered, disconnected, and segmented. Mind, heart, and body 3 paralleled entities.
What writing perspective to use? Love feeling indecisive.. Normally I'm indecisive about dinner. paradox people feel I'm put together. Heh!
I stand str-8, eerily quiet, and didn't realize how my quietness unnerves others. Then again when I speak umm. People wouldn't expect to hear words fly from my lips rather shocking, grotesque, and realistic. Then I revert into my shell.
Truthfully, I dress like a bum living for comfort, my hair always a mess, but always clean I love smelling fragrant.
Favorite fragrances: Angel, amber, hypnotic poison, and be delicious.
Love soft citrus, vanilla, bergamot, lime. Harsh artificial scents make me gag. My hair, nails, and soft skin. My skin feels like silk,
I touch others with feather light delicacy. The same fashion grandmother Cho touched me. I miss my grandmother's touch velvety hands ever so gentle. Touch is important and meaningful.
Unfortunately, I'm afraid allowing others to touch me. If around family I'm comfortable with I'm alright with touch. if people look inside out others would be frightened in what's viewed.
I'm not looking forward to pain, depression, and feeling physically ill. Fuck path to self healing is fucking over rated.
I need to make changes. I'm sick of beating my head against wall apparently I haven't learned shit. If I'm repeating same fucking mistakes.
I want to feel complete, whole, and healthy having ability to walk away from anything unhealthy in My world. Ability in utilizing Tesla coil, I am receiver and transmitter took Me a long time in figuring mystery.
I hope thought scares whom tried controlling Me. A lil late in game..I've been meditating and transmuting. Clearing negative trees helpful Sakura, dogwood, willow, magnolia, redwood, Sequoia.
I planted meditative trees, trees are flourishing 17 yrs of growth.
[Fuck, Fuck, and Fuck]!!!
Time began 12:12 am.
Sigh, I hate crying worse than vomiting. Last time I cried in 2015 when my world flipped. Don't misunderstand my world was fucked, but capsized drastically.
Clearing out trauma…fuck, I'm scared, scared of unknown proverbial x in equation. What will happen, will I change for better or worse?
Integration of known personalities: Mel shell, Melissa core, military internal programs Z10RX2, livewire, diamond, pandora. Storybook training wizard of oz, princess and pea, 3 bears, Alice in wonderland. Disney training..list feels endless..
My mother told me at 15 I'd be locked in looney bin at age 36 due to My level of compartmentalization. I'm not 45 beat odd somehow.
Little bits at a time so my mind isn't lost. Reverse it's better to get lost in order to find myself. Fear of abandoning myself leaves me riddled with panic like I won't find myself.
[Wrapping randy hartman up]....
No, longer will u be a thought after today randy hartman. I need to process my pain, anguish, and disconnection.
Faceted compartmentalization held me back from being complete. Integration shell and core should scare the hell into everyone. Make zero Mistake I am coming for enemies seen and unseen.
I must have ample self love, confidence, and esteem. Everything u'll never be randy hartman hates Me bc I'm what u will never be self described words above u'll never rep.
Pretentious and pompous sorry ass beliefs. I'm sorry u'll miss Me writing about u.
Time in climbing attic and clearing out what I don't need anymore. I don't want traumatized laced memories bombarding mind.
I need peace of mind, bring Melissa out so I'm not afraid of Sun anymore. Funny a name I don't identify using not with anyone or myself.
A stubborn, willful, and chaotic child much love is necessary. I think I'm ready to nurture Melissa giving guidance and direction.
I hope by dropping ur tax id number gives Me time in releasing pressure. Fuck, I need to breathe
Good-bye
randy hartman
Federal Tax ID: 25-1814034 US
P.S
Number 1+9+3+1+9+8+7+8+3+4= 53 5+3= 8
Time 8+3+3= 14 1+4= 5
Duration 4+8= 12 1+2= 3
Tapped My cell? Fuck head. Don't worry u have a couple of yrs left better make good use before u die. I predicted emily wallgren's father's death.
Fuck I am a Villain
Niteflirt homewrecker randy allen hartman wants to tell Me. My policy of *truth* will help Me die faster? Trust I'm watching My back no worries.
Since harassment is on I am aware, awake, and alert. darling haven't u realized I've flipped script? ur time in cowering, hiding, and honestly take u from any sun.
Missing out on hadlee reece and hudson hartmann mommie laura lee tucker. u've missed out on angel christine arnett and damon isaiah brown mommie Niteflirt homewrecker heather hays completely over 18 exonerated from parenting. charles nelson mommie veronique emilie aka ronnie nelson.
None of these children are under ur legal name. Who are u trying to protect alleged children from honestly?
u decided to leave unfinished business not My fucking problem.
dogs unleashed who to save? How long are u able to run asshole? ur gone suddenly u miss Me? Oh, fuck what silly games Niteflirt homewrecker randy allen hartman want to play. Didn't u know Trix are made for kids, Chucky, and jigsaw are running jokes.
Hurt Me for ur sins? Trust I'm not Jesus who *willingly* died for everybody's sins. Flip script people killed Jesus for their sin.
Truly out of ur mind shows Me how delusional randy hartman border line personality makes perfect government rat emotional instability, feelings of worthlessness, insecurity, impulsivity, and impaired social relationships.
Fuck, I've 40 yrs experience with such humans. I am an expert and expecting Me suffer due to the fact I see through u. Upset u couldn't control Me? One Bitch u had zero control over.
Failure to acknowledge My Power without money. Sherman helped utilize phrase, “man makes money, money doesn't make a man.”
Here I am alone with shields My only protection. I am protected by ancestors, entities, and people who remain nameless, faceless, shadows lurking in anonymity.
Who want Me to do their selfish bidding and opposing force needs to stop Me from carrying out any level of plan.
Either way a used pawn in scheme of thangs. Since neither side are able to kill Me. Next on agenda is have Me suffer does not matter as long as I suffer.
Well, I've lost My Family…daughter, grand daughter. High Time Making both sides suffer causing pain both sides where happy dealing out.
Time in returning pain, grief, and wrath. Honestly, Sweet dreams
Niteflirt homewrecker randy hartman in My car took anchor charger and moved driver seat sometime this morning. homewrecker randy hartman in My car while I wrote entry. Want to remind Me security does not exist? Can't wait for full scale attack launched ur way *Smirx*
Don't want Me to Forget u fucks with ur sensibility? :))
Why the fuck is My blog set for British time?
[alleged niteflirt homewrecker the bacon factory heather hays gm manager for McDonald's 5601 Capitol Blvd SE, Tumwater, WA 98501]
ur talking to a Dominant I'm not here to give, feed, or offer cock any level of *relief*. Dominant in Talk and Walk different for assholes who are accustomed in being catered. Those who revel in disgusting fantasies who feel they deserve it their way.
ur not bending Me over in any respect. If u can't tell person married what u like, dislike, married under lies. Making every excuse in book having others feel sowwy for u.
person is looking for pitiful fuck.
Been a hot minute, I've come back different and changed. Funny how life changes perspective in a dramatic way. Point of matter I'm here to sink homewreckers. I want u to feel burn of humiliation.
Giving homewrecking homewreckers taste of medicine. I want homewrecker to feel shame, guilt, and burn every time u look into family eyes.
heather Nicole hays I want u exposed.
Knowing funds, time, and attention homewrecker randy allen hartman pour into sluts.
Living with homewrecker randy hartman Federal Tax ID: 25-1814034 US and ghost alleged bitches emily wallgren phoenix az., heather hays, and heather lee heatherly dyer.
heather lee dyer heatherly and keith Bryan heatherly filed for divorce in Santa Rosa fl in 2019. What heather dyer's fun bags weren't enough? 2010 homewrecker heather dyer discussed after hysterectomy keith did not touch her sexually wanted nothing more to do with wife. I wonder why? Did heather have more than hysterectomy? Something like an sti? Possibly genital herpes of second type?
Federal Tax ID: 25-1814034 US I'm sure lil number ties all parties together.
homewrecker emily catherine wallgren fahey Phoenix, az and gabriel james fahey married quickly. randy hartman eluded emy married gabriel to gain control of finances. Allegedly keeping Gabe in a drugged zombie trance state in keeping him under control.
Stripping and chiseling away any level of self esteem. Since gabe a recovering alcoholic why not have gabe yield to inhibitions?
Allegedly emily wallgren-fahey wanted to eat cake and ice cream. Their both trust fund babies financially independent and wanted gabe's ass under lock and key. Not sure when they divorced but happy marriage was short lived.
homewrecker heather hays I suspect has two children by my future x homewrecking husband randy hartman, and runs baconfacory.com lil alleged homewrecker whore needs to be patient in marrying randy hartman damn how long does heather hays need to wait?
What girlfriend of nine years isn't enough for homewrecker heather hays shinayla William gm of McDonald's Tumwater, WA. Where heather hays is gm at capital drive in Tumwater, WA.
bruce cho homewrecker asshole Biological father went out his way in homewrecking family. bruce and kassandra truly hated one another, but hated daughter more. Tried to destroy Me parents sexually molested, beat, and neglected Me.
bruce cho is certainly no prize an over glorified drug king pin suffering megalomania. [[[[michelle cho]]My 1/2 sister aka mimi bean.
What ashame My time in wrecking parents “Memoirs of a Dominatrix”
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