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Not a Typical Homewrecking Niteflirt Journal.
[Conspiracy of Terran Alien Myth, Discovering If Chief Joseph Sr and Jr are Legitimate Ancestors]
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[homewrecked] Audio Narrative.
[My husband randy allen hartman Photos of Alleged Children]
wanna see you undo it I wanna see you but you're not mine - the 1975
Take archaic process and shove in ass
I don't remember ever telling anyone I've dated, “I'm theirs.” A notion I don't understand to be treated as a possession. No, I belong to myself overtime I've come to understand this is not a compromise.
I will never be told again my happiness will depend on randy or anybody. I've made a clear choice in stopping any level of abuse.
Monogamy a interesting word involving two people. Mono stipulates one so why isn't word duoagamy?
Ensured my relationship went quite monogamously. My relationship with self.
Countdown till new year...
I've been surveilled since birth. Violence incurred over my years. Perverse parents handlers needed puppet? Sold 1st born for militaristic purposes, and sold second born Brandy Leeann Looney.
Apparently a gifted child, even worse a gift from cosmos. Blessed with cursed intelligence. After 45 years of trying to pervert, taint, and pollute me with unnatural beliefs blew up in unknown faces.
Blueprints, Imprints, and programs failed. Princess and pea, Wizard of oz, Alice in Wonderland Storybook programming, muscle, emotional, and mental Manipulation, and trained for killing of Serial kind.
Should have expected me a bit earlier meaning 5-10 minutes. Might have lucked out having supernatural killer who'd never leave compound.
Had I'd been a solidified double leo with Scorpio ascendant zero conscious, regret, moral. Having cusp on Scorpio/Sagittarius gives mutability. Meaning Conscious…
I have amazing duality: born on new moon or black moon. Mercury in retro, year of Fire Snake, Chinese ascendant goat or lamb pending on region. Western astrology Scorpio 27 degrees cusping Sagittarian. Venus in cancer defeats scope of killing ability to look into someone.
most wanted to doubt any level of humanity in me. Jokes on people involved. Since parameters are observe, record, and detail. Neutralize hoping I don't fully wake.
I've experienced loss, pain, humiliation, and detrimental social experiments. I'm not gunna tell anyone to stop. All situations helped me become formidable, adaptable, and flexible. My life is not publicized for media sake, but certainly dissected for study.
randy hartman said, “he'd destroy my mind to be a perfect vegetable.” I don't keep any illusion of privacy, everything surveilled and monitored.
Fuck y'all, I have beaten system beautifully. I feel ur trying to fail or failing to try. Otherwise comical by my standard.
One function stays very much alive “love” not kissy, kiss, holding hands, or cheesy ass sex. I'm speaking manifesting universal love.
Anywhere I land, I notice organic grassroots fielding changing hearts and minds. Quite powerful, powers that be should fear such power fielded by 1 individual. Happy fucking new year.
[matty healy]
I swear apple tunes blew 1975 up in 2014. I skipped every track blasted on apple Itunes skipped until I was not able to skip tracks. I wasn't ready to listen. Early 2015 I heard falling4u I was hooked and began listening.
When smoke is in your eyes, you look so alive Do you fancy sitting down with me maybe 'Cause you're all I need According to your heart My place is not deliberate Feeling of your arms I don't want to be your friend, I want to kiss your neck…
Lyrics caught my attention, I didn't watch any of 1975 videos until 2017. Love black and white concept. Didn't know group members names not until a month 1/2 ago.
Yes, I'm a fan, but not fanatic. If I like music that's what matters. I figure if I'll never meet them zero point in trying to meet ppl through books, mags, or weird biased biographies seems stupid. Which information is slanted, biased, lacking real objectivity. I don't own anything which screams fan.
First concert 4-30-17 I almost didn't go, but hastily changed my mind. We went.. I don't remember much of the night was completely eclipsed. Fuck my life sometimes.
I thought drugs would kill matty eventually. If I have to be honest. Something happened in past five yrs looks fucking healthy.
Now before I go to sleep matty's face glitches. Dream: something about a party with 1920 headpieces blue, purple, pink, decked of all things clear dice, lights lit bottom of floor tables of food, chairs, alcohol not sure why chairs where needed everyone was sitting on floor. matty, enters room suddenly people are excited.
Walks in with clear glasses filled with clear liquid. Immediately everyone begins to drink except me. I didn't know what was in glass. matty asked me to drink, suddenly I am looking for exit.
Fuck, I leave and stuck in sound proof room. I woke up..
Blueprints
Bren blueprint, I teased randy about Bren. Noting little details bout this or that. No, harm in making future x a little uncomfortable. Play future ex's game when randy is with lovers make lovers jealous about me. Let's play alphabet game.
Blueprint in looks Option: A. Bren from New York 70 miles from Montauk, B. Austin Olympia, WA., C. Kovi Orum, D. David from Austin, TX, E. Eric. Bren and Kovi share same birthday 2 yrs apart.
Strewn different look alikes working in same building. I was shocked at array thrown my way. Blew me away looking at all similarities between all characters.
When noticing what was around me I cracked the fuck up. Problems living near military wasn't far from Joint base lewis McChord.
Bren...
“I want see you but your not mine.” - 1975.
Worked with Bren for 19.5 months. We didn't exchange any “Hellos” for first six months we worked together. I knew Bren was a minor easy to ignore.
After six months we finally exchanged, “Hellos” working with Bren easy. Something to this muthafucka big thangs come in small packages.
February came and went he left to pick up girlfriend. Bren asked for a hug…
Psyched poor boy out..COVID… I told Bren yes I would hug him. Then stopped Bren in tracks. I hugged myself, said “I hope you felt hug from here.” Bren's face :(( disappointed.
Bren's about 5'6, deep brown eyes shape of eyes think Sylvester Stallone's shape of eyes soft, sensitive, and brimming with such life. Curly hair something bout me loving curls on guys..curls have to be Right.
Speed up six months.. I asked Bren when's his birthday, Bren's response, “Yesterday why I wasn't at work took day off to celebrate.” My response, “Really?”
Props to Bren, quick .. “Oh, no shit??” “Yep, darling we could have certainly celebrated, you had to get your girl, what ashame.”
Speed up six months..his gurl in parking lot making out with Bren's brother. I'm one who witnessed indiscretion. Did I say anything? No..Why, bc wasn't my situation to jump into.
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