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Not a Typical Homewrecking Niteflirt Journal.
[Conspiracy of Terran Alien Myth, Discovering If Chief Joseph Sr and Jr are Legitimate Ancestors]
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[homewrecked] Audio Narrative.
[My husband randy allen hartman Photos of Alleged Children]
Issues...
Touchy subjects dealt now I have an opportunity to discuss what I've delayed for years. After 45 years reflecting upon repercussions of cause and effect.
What caused me not to trust, how abuse fucked me over, yes, silence is evil. Silence helps perpetrator get away with murder. By not taking a proactive stance I allowed others to be hurt.
Shame comes with territory not wanting others knowing what I suffered at hands of others. Not wanting to be seen differently, not wanting pity, sorry from people who wouldn't understand. Even worse called a liar.
Not my shame to bare, I had zero control in what happened to me as a toddler and child by my parents, cousin, and uncle. Vile acts for myself caused disassembled disassociation, compartmentalization, add, ADHD, panic, anxiety, paranoia, and ocd.
I don't need diagnosis from a doctor. I live in myself, I know myself better than most know me. I'm more vocal not graphic in smoke shack confessional.
The 1975 title poetry
I'm part of the 1975 band looking for someone to love who is human too. All about you, Oh, Caroline Wintering, I'm in love with you. Happiness is All I need to hear when we are together.
Being funny in a foreign language
Smoke Shack Confessionals
Yes, I love going to work I swear best therapy offered during break time almost a support group. Happy, I don't have to pay a lunatic therapist who prescribes drugs numbing feelings, receives fast pay for service rendered.
joke: I worked with gorgeous co employee who I'd fuck in a New York minute. I thought he was 20.
fucking punchline: He was 17 1/2 almost 18 birthdate 2-26-2004. when I found out my automatic thought, “Oh, shit I'm a pedophile!!” My heart sank from chest and dropped through my ass :(((
Pumped breaks real fast!! Not worth my freedom for shizzzz. Ordeal felt like a setup. Explanation: I feel my future ex knew [Austin Stephan earley]. B4 future x left I certainly expressed an interest in [Austin Stephan earley].
I keep asking universe to swing Austin. Ironically, universe does well in sending guys with name Austin (ugh, universe never gets anything I ask correct.) I don't want lifetime only a weekend.
Little suggestions I made were done over time. Examples: cargo pants, clunky shoes need to go, and wear shirts framing physique. Everything I expressed slowly changed in a matter of a year.
I'm opposed to beards, [Austin Stephan earley grew beard look completely worked for him rocking a clean cut Captain Jack Sparrow look. Beautiful long curly hair kept in durag.
Who else slipped information [Austin Stephan earley] way? Only person my future X makes complete sense my future x wanted to set me up for statutory rape of a minor. Yep, totally plausible. Now real question: Why is my future ex hanging out with underage boys?
1975 favorite moments
I have everything except faux masturbation scene.
Be my mistake
Roadkill
Part of the band
randy allen hartman, I don't remember shit from first concert. How our night went after concert..from wamu to vehicle, vehicle to home arguing.
Home arguing till four pm. Right around midnight we decide to call it quits slept woke arguing. Damn near 24 hrs of arguing. Doesn't leave much room for memory bc this is what I remember most..asshole.
[Fucking psycho! randy allen hartman]
Number 1+9+3+1+9+8+7+8+3+4= 53 5+3= 8
Time 8+3+3= 14 1+4= 5
Duration 4+8= 12 1+2= 3
randy allen hartman what a fucking dick!!! Gawd, I fucking hate u!! Almost sounds like a love letter.
Zero, love only hate, disgust, and give Me another adjective or adverb for Loathsome. Lazy in checking right now. I can't say I have zero fux. Cuz I am writing about this shit. I'd feel so much better if u fucking o.d'ed and died!!! If I'm a pain in ur ass, u've been Bain of My existence for last 21 years.
Want to get in contact? ya, call muthafucka I honestly picked up last time, but u hung up? To much of a dick in saying hello?
Ready to finalize? What's preventing u from coming out of woodwork? Fear? If I were u, I'd fear Me.
I can't call u pussy an insult to Women around the way.
Located in Clarksville looking for a job? Sherry Fitzgerald Clarksville. Letting Me know u found Me. December 8, 2021. Hmm, I didn't put in for a change of address until 3/7/2022.
How about scenario u were already moved in living in our apartment complex took a 6 months lease. Explains why I have missing panties and socks.
March 14th, May 27th, April 15th, June 9, July 21st, Sept 5, of 2022. Key dates not sure about March or September. April 15th our anniversary we never acknowledged, but now u want to remember by stealing undies and sox?
May 27th BF's birthday, 6/9/22 day we met Harry styles adore u on repeat. 7/21/22 day my friend Courtney Melissa Reed passed.
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